GG: rose please say something GG: you are making me nervous... TT: I should have gone looking for her. TT: Why didn't I? GG: umm GG: because you were busy trying to make the best of this situation? TT: John was too. But he went to look for his father. TT: It would have been normal of me. I can't remember what I was trying to prove anymore. GG: i dont think you should be so hard on yourself about it GG: john was being john, and you were being you, which i guess meant taking our problems very seriously and putting all your attention on solving them! GG: and anyway, you and your mom had a much trickier relationship than john and his dad didnt you? GG: i mean, not that i am saying that means you were any less attached to her than him... GG: argh, i dont know if im very good at consoling people. sorry rose i dont want to make you feel worse :( TT: You're doing fine. TT: For someone raised by a dog. TT: Or really, TT: Anyone. TT: Thanks. GG: whew, ok GG: you know... GG: now we have all lost guardians GG: dave lost his, and i lost mine in a weird way... uuum even though that was pretty much definitely my fault :\ GG: and even the trolls all lost their monster guardians GG: i think that maybe it is an inevitable part of a game that can be cruel sometimes TT: For some reason, despite all the danger, I never thought she was in any trouble. TT: I never believed she would actually die. TT: I grew up with the feeling that something more significant had always been meant for her. TT: That she was a heroine displaced in some way, resigned to the inglorious duty of raising me, and preparing me in her way. TT: I didn't actually need the ectobiological verification that she was like a mother and a sister at the same time. I always understood that somehow. TT: And I felt she had knowledge and ability beyond what she let on. It was always intimidating, but nonetheless a source of respect which was childishly begrudging on my part. TT: I think she was just waiting for me to catch up with her. TT: But now I can't. GG: ...... GG: i am so sad GG: rose i think you are being stronger about it than i am TT: Probably because my emotions have now ceded to anger. TT: This shouldn't have happened. GG: oh GG: well GG: i just hope you arent thinking of doing something rash TT: I already was. TT: I was going to go to sleep, fly to a sun bigger than our universe, drop a bomb in it, and kill myself. GG: yeaaah... TT: So if my course of action is to change on account of my mood, it can only become less impetuous, don't you think? GG: errrr, i dont know? TT: You never liked my plan very much anyway. GG: wellllll GG: no! GG: but i was trusting that you had thought it through and it was our best hope TT: I'm not sure if I did. TT: Maybe it was a terrible plan. TT: I made it without a full understanding of the nature of the Scratch. GG: hm GG: then what will you do? TT: I could stop being so cowardly, for once. TT: I could short circuit this endlessly expanding game of chess we're playing, just like Jack decided to do. GG: what does that mean! TT: Maybe I will go kill Jack myself. TT: Right now. GG: oh no no no no no! GG: rose that is a much much worse plan!!!!! GG: he would probably kill you! TT: Probably. TT: But the Scratch will wipe us out anyway, and reboot the conditions of our session. TT: I suddenly don't feel much like sneaking through the back door of the Furthest Ring for retribution by distant super nova. GG: i know what you mean, i was angry at jack and wanted to stop him too, but we have to think of a more sensible way to do it TT: Whether my existing plan was sensible or not, TT: I may have been allowing myself to be manipulated by an omniscient being regardless. GG: what? who? Hello ladies. GG: aaaaaaa whaaaaat????? TT: This is a private conversation. TT: Private even to those who know it word for word already. Proceed. I will be here. Watching. GG: rose who is this! TT: Ignore him. GG: i dont even know whats going on anymore You were discussing Ms. Lalonde's intrepid new variation on suicide. As one with a passion for the subject, I'm intrigued. TT: Shh. TT: Anyway, if it's true the gods have "selected" me for service, maybe the power they've given me will be sufficient. TT: Maybe they wanted me to kill him all along. Hee hee. GG: SHHHHHHHHHH! GG: please dont rose, i know you are angry but you arent thinking straight TT: But I am. TT: I'm fully aware I'll probably die and fail. Scratch happens, we start fresh. No recollection, no problem. GG: nooo :( Jade, as an ambassador of Skaia, maybe you'd be willing to talk some sense into your friend? You should understand she's been corrupted by various entities with some rather questionable motives. GG: rose, maybe white text guy is right? GG: the dark gods gave you all these powers, and seem to be helping us with dream bubbles and stuff... GG: but what if they are not actually good? TT: They are enormous, ugly, and live in darkness. TT: That doesn't necessarily make them bad. GG: no... GG: but i still dont trust them! If only there were a way to make this determination with certainty. Through a reliable source within reach, for instance, at this exact moment. Perhaps one that is spherical, and devastatingly handsome. GG: whats this weirdo talking about! TT: The cue ball. GG: oh yeah GG: i noticed you found it! GG: i was worried it had been destroyed when my room blew up GG: is he saying you can use it? TT: Yes. And he is right. GG: omg GG: does it work??? TT: It advised me to talk to you just now. TT: So I guess so. GG: then maybe you should try it! Yes, Rose. Listen to Jade. She is far less manipulative than I. TT: What are you suggesting I ask it? GG: well GG: since we dont know much about the gods... GG: why dont you ask it about them? TT: So, you're saying I should ask it if the gods are evil? GG: i guess that is a way to put it Even though at this point neither of you is highlighting my text to read it, this idea gets my vote. Go ahead. Ask, Seer.